i just want to say that you gotta hang in there and endure. help is really on the way soon. and you know he won't leave you hanging. he has been fighting for you, so really, just hang in there. i know it's easy for me to say that, because i have no comprehension (of the extent) of shit that is happening there. but i think right now, i can only offer these words to you. TAHAN!!!! it's a challenge you chose to take up and in time you will definitely shine because, what doesn't kill you know will make you a stronger person later. and i know for a fact that YOU CAN MAKE IT through the tunnel towards the light. of cos, i can also offer you my willing eyes and listening ears. anytime bro. anytime. u know where to find me. ^_^ so i hope this post serves as a spark to light up your hopes and darkness. remember there are pple waiting for you to get ur BIG ass back safe and sound. and they'll be here to support you. take care monster!